I'm very pissed off at making my schedule every week. Put alot of working days. Just so i can don't waste anytime and make myself busy. I can't stand being at home for even just 4hrs and such. But gets very little working time. Can't be blamed. I need money, alot alot of money. To put up with the life i want. But with my current job. I don't think that will happen.

I love music. Absolutely Percussion, i love playing on the drum. Its makes me feel. I dunnoe also. But i don't like to travel to places like Tanan Merah, Hougang, Kallang or wadever places that needs me to travel for more than 1hr and such. Jsut for an 2-3hrs practice. I'm really tired for traveling around like a tourist. It's my dream to be a greater percussionist. But not like this. I'm having a big problem with going to even twss to just play on the drum. Letting my hands loosen. Its just not the same. I want to play just like how i did when i was sec4s. :(

Schooling have been quite a big problem for me as well. Its like everyday facing the same problem of not understanding what the teacher is trying to explain to us. But when i doesn't understand and starts to ask the teacher for solution. All they do was teach the same thing again. Without any explanation wadsoever. Now, starting even to regrade that i've taken Electronic as my course. But when school reopen. Its going to be a new and fresh start.

Working is going smoothly. Just trying to cope with not caring about the cost being cut. The table side service had been removed. Which was really awesome. Table side service and really kiss my ass seh. But now. People rather have delivery. Which was like fuck. So busy with doing the DDD everyday. But i like doing the DDD. Cos, its just slacking as a food emboyer and packing those food for DDD. But when phone calls of DDD error. Can kiss my ass already.

Throughout all the problems that i've face and listed down here. I'm very pressured. I'm not like someone whom like to show off. Like some people out there acting like a fucking nabeh. I'm busy with life also. Alot of people are. I just can't stand you saying other people is very free or wadsoever. I don't like your fucking attitude. I don't like your face also. You can don't like mine. But thats you mother's problem. I don't like you saying you are better than people whom are better, when all you do is complain to people that have the power to decline us. I had enough of you sabotaging my friends. I'm saying you! And you know very well i'm referring to you. You are better off dead.

I felt really useless and stuffs. TWCO SYF in 16days and i don't have the mood to go there to visit them and give them support that they needs. At least i'm supporting them mentally. And know they had improved after rehearsals and Apprication Day was awesome. Well, Jiayou guys. I'll try my very very best to go back on monday or so. Do me a favour. Don't let TWCO disband. Thats the only wish i have in school left. All you guys need to do now is put in a little bit more effort. And the Sliver medal will be ours.

Argh. Hope my Loyal blog readers don't get bored by me being able to post everyday.

tag replies:

• Jeff: You feel alone? Same here, what happen? what disaster?
• replies: Very sian sia holiday. Nothing lah. I text you already. Sorry for the late reply.
• LINDEN: Thanks Jianxiang (:
• replies: Welcome :D
  

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P.S: Sorry for the nagged post. I just need to let some problems out.

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