I'm really really stress this week days. Just because of things that can affect my life.

I applied for my school. And everything was okay already. Till today. I thought that they have already accepted me into the school. I went for interview. Everything was good. I went for test. Result was great! And my teacher was giving me hints that i getting into my class already. So excited. But they brought me to the highest level of happiness and push my down to the deepest part of hell. Sob. They told me that they accepted me because theres alot of slots. And i got my basics worked out in nitec. But they told me yesterday that i never apply for anything. Fuck it! What's the fucking meaning of this? If i never apply for anything. How did they get my contact number, my house address and even the school i was before? I seriously don't know what they are doing? Seriously, what the fuck is this? Do they really want to drive me crazy? Because if they are. I'm really going crazy. Can't sleep well at night. I've been drinking almost everyday. Because that's the only thing that allows me to sleep. Even that. I only sleep for like 4hrs everyday? I'm really tired. I want to give up. But my ego tells me that i work too hard to give up now. But i seriously cannot take it anymore. Fuck this shit. Fuck this fucking school. But who is to blame other than myself? For not working hard in my education. I can blame no one but myself. I'm depress.